#AGoodAsian: Diary Honesty from Little Clarissa Wei
TIRED OF BEING A "GOOD ASIAN"? DO YOU SECRETLY WANT TO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?
LET'S REDEFINE "SUCCESS" ONE FAILURE AT A TIME...AND START KICKING ASS.
EXPLORE THIS COLLECTION OF BLOGS AND ESSAYS WRITTEN AND CURATED BY WRITER AND STANDUP COMIC JENNY YANG.
Who would share entries from their childhood diaries? Writer and certified food enthusiast Clarissa Wei did. And she did it with all the beauty and vulnerability that comes with sharing your most honest thoughts with the world.
What struck me the most about her entry "The Most Troubling Quotes from My Diaries" was how self-aware little Clarissa was about her competitive nature, desire for getting good grades and being Asian American. Here's just one example:
2008: (18 years old)
“I’m somewhat disillusioned with my identity. I’m Asian — thus, I feel, somewhat inferior. Because I’m Asian, I don’t feel in any way attractive. Because I’m Asian, I don’t feel I can voice my voice confidently. I have ultimately suppressed my voice.” [original post here]
I was also an avid childhood diary writer but, dang, I don't remember my entries being so insightful.
Here's some evidence. This is a photo of my diaries. And they aren't even the ones from my childhood! I have those at my parents' house.
2008: (Jenny. Not 18 years old)
"I know there are other amazing planes of existence and that can be released and allowed to happen every single moment."
What was I smoking? Nothing really. I was really into quantum physics and that "What the Bleep" documentary (that was introduced to me by my buddy from Canada Joe who was often seen smoking).
I really appreciated Clarissa sharing her most insecure thoughts about growing up #AGoodAsian. I've been told that it feels most empowering when we bring light to the stuff we are most ashamed of. Two fist bumps to Clarissa for doing just that.
Speak on it, Clarissa! I have a feeling this is all a stepping stone in the wonderful process of finding all of our voices. This inspires me to look through my actual childhood diaries. Hmmm.
And by the way: I cannot forget to mention the amazing storytelling series "Mortified" that has now become a tv show, books, and documentary! It's exactly as it sounds..storytelling inspired by reading actual embarrassing childhood diary entries.
Please comment below. Did you keep a diary growing up? What kinds of things did you write about? Have you gone back and looked over what you wrote? Any insights?